last night, I had a quiet interesting interaction with Offred. The commander had asked me to tell her, late at night, which is illegal, to come and visit him the next day. I couldn't resist my feelings and i had to kiss her. I know what i was doing in the first place was illegal, but to kiss her was outrageous. I couldn't hold back anymore though. I must some how let her know my feelings, even if its in such stupid ways as kissing her when we shouldn't be talking at all. I know that she can easily report me. I understand the risk that I take, but my feelings are true, I can tell.