last night, I had a quiet interesting interaction with Offred. The commander had asked me to tell her, late at night, which is illegal, to come and visit him the next day. I couldn't resist my feelings and i had to kiss her. I know what i was doing in the first place was illegal, but to kiss her was outrageous. I couldn't hold back anymore though. I must some how let her know my feelings, even if its in such stupid ways as kissing her when we shouldn't be talking at all. I know that she can easily report me. I understand the risk that I take, but my feelings are true, I can tell.

I'm a 6 foot guardian. I have a slender face and look to some to be french. I have creases from smiling too much. My favorite past time is relaxing with my favorite book. I like to just relax and try to have fun when I can. I have a recurring nightmare. I have a nightmare of dyeing with nothing of me left behind. I'm afraid when I die that's it, and no one will notice my death. I feel that if i some how, myself, have a child I will be remembered